Thursday, April 27, 2006

A cheery one

I'm sorry it's been so long.
I want to be the cheerful wise woman that runs deep with water and understanding and yet all I come out with is this:

At midnight, when lights are out
the essence of stars
shining only when summoned,
he was the brightest.

When every one of them
called me. He stood out. Me to him
me to him
we were made for it.

What ever happened?
To believe in this ending has got to be the
sourest blood of all.

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

The unavoidable thistle

I am having an out of body experience due to what I must accept as another's choice. I somersault through disbelief, anger, pity, love, sadness, loss, and back to disbelief again. This excerpt from Leap by Terry Tempest Williams tells the story. What would you choose?
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There are two ways of escaping the pain
and despair of life, and of the rarest, most
subtle dangerous and ensnaring gift that life
can bring us, relationship with another
person - love.

One way is to kill that love in one's heart.
To kill love - to kill life.

The other way is to accept that love, to
accept the snare, to accept the pricks, the thistle.

To accept life - but that is dangerous.

It is also dangerous not to accept life. . .

Every man and woman is free to accept or
deny life - to accept or reject this questionable
gift - this thistle.
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It is important to accept the shadow in all of us because then it cannot thrive.

Friday, April 14, 2006

Pave paradise and put up a parking lot

Where once there were giant redwoods,
their thick, broken bark hugged by gentle green
raining spots of sun and shadow where, depending on your mood,

you'd lie down to let rays of golden peace soak your face or
you'd lie down in shadow and quiver
from the cool breeze
on your hot skin like a whisper
embracing both shadow and light and knowing their value,
where once there was this
there is a parking lot. A black, expansive, empty lot.

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

Us last weekend. . .


Spring
Originally uploaded by Claddyjack.
in Breckenridge riding with friends from out of town. We had a wonderful time playing outdoors in the sun, relaxing indoors, seeing Woody Allen's disturbing "Match Point" with a group of gals (we all sat uncomfortably for most of the film and Dave correctly said it was "like watching stupid people"), buying gear at 50% off, and spontaneously meeting up with our kickass Breck crew at the martini bar. Why can't this last forever?

Saturday, April 08, 2006

The Purrrrfect Sunday


Boarding in Beaver Creek
Originally uploaded by Claddyjack.
Last Sunday I woke up to 5" of powder and a blue sky. Out of pure excitement I called my friend Kara early - too early (7:45am) - but I did it anyway. Turns out I didn't wake her because she hadn't gone to bed yet. What luck.

"We must ride," I pronounced.

There are plenty of cold and windy weekends when you'd have to pull me out of my coziness to go outside, but this day was a godsend - new snow and sun. I knew Dave had no business going outside to play with me no matter how epic the day. He was sick from his exhausting, rain-drenched Hawaiian vacation. Poor guy brought back a bad cough along with the 351 mosquito bites that he acquired while at an ultimate frisbee tournament with his buddies. (yes, I counted them. What good is being bitten that many times without getting an accurate accounting?) Damn thing came home needing a vacation from his time in Hawaii.

Kara rallied like a champ and, along with her fun roommate Christy, we boarded Beaver Creek. Hardly any people were there. We shared slopes with maybe 5 other people at any given time. Being my first winter here I can only guess that this is what happens after spring break. Most everyone splits and the locals own the mountain.

After such a day of boarding I came home to homemade cornbread. A big plus is that Dave loves to cook and he's good at it. We ate cornbread & honey - while watching an episode of "Deadwood," our favorite HBO series - before getting ready for a spontaneous night out to see a dance performance at the Vilar Center for the Performing Arts.

The night before we had stumbled upon a bunch of dancers hanging out at our local coffee shop. In from New York they had performed a night in Denver and were in Vail to perform on Sunday. I've mentioned how much I miss the city and one of the biggest reasons is because in the city you can entrench yourself in creativity. . . art shows, dance performances, readings. . . in San Francisco, LA, New York creativity is everywhere. I approached some of the dancers and after a stimulating discussion about Twyla Tharp, Bill T. Jones their own choreographer, how much water you need to drink up at 8,000 feet and the pros and cons of living here, I knew we had to go.

I was absolutely blown away by this piece. I cried during one particular part where Bill, founder/choreographer, sings a gospel/folk song about (among other things) a young man who lost his leg in the current war while dancers are moving, one man in uniform is marching, someone is whispering a text about the perils of 4th generation war. . . it's a multimedia theatrical dance experience without being overwhelming or preachy. The 100 or so people in the audience were mainly rich people of this valley who can afford the tickets. I couldn't believe what I was seeing - how sophistocated, how timely, how moving, what vision, power and genius. I felt so lucky to have been there. And I wanted all of my friends to be there. Why didn't we know about this? Is there an outreach program for the locals, I wondered? People need to see this and these performers deserve a larger audience.

Obviously the tickets don't really pay for anything, such performances are made possible by all of the donors. I envision them saying: Broadway must come to us. Let's not go to the city anymore, it's too tiresome.

Well, thank you donors of the Vilar Center. It brings the best part of the city to us. Wow.

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

New Anthem - Better Way


New Anthem - Better Way
Originally uploaded by Claddyjack.
For your viewing/listening pleasure - Ben Harper and the Innocent Criminals on KCRW.org. His double album just came out and I've been starting my day with the haunting and sweet, Morning Yearning (the first song he plays on KCRW). Then I get my necessary dose of collective optimism with his anthem, Better Way. While listening I fantasize rallying with hoards of people while others are organized in the same fashion all over the states. He then rocks the political funk with Both Sides of the Gun, which is just so damn true. Inspiring!