Have compassion for your shame

Have compassion for your shame 
For unattended it may fester 
Uncared for it holds its mark 
To deny it is to mock it 
Laughing at it in the dark 
Embrace it as the innocent child 
Until it stands up and walks away
And if it comes back, bathe it with Love
Until it doesn't need you anymore

Torus and the Muses

From a few early mornings ago: It's 6:46am and I've been up for a couple hours. It's the third night in a row that something has woken me around the witching hour. This early candlelit morning I feel it must have been the violent dream that I woke myself from - a difficult dream of my mother (representing anyone and everyone) and self-violence (universal), but beautiful in its metaphor. I've been dreaming a lot again which is always a good sign. After waking, I soothed my mind by traveling behind my lids, watching grey shapes drift before me, quickly and continually morphing into each other before I can completely identify them. I've gotten better over the years as I've practiced watching these shapes fly by. It feels like I'm traveling through inner space and at the same time I'm outside myself. Being present within AND without. When I'm lucky, I fly through this interior space of objects, they are in technicolor, move incredibly fast and I see them in great detail. Really so beautiful. Due to my belief and love of the noosphere I've been practicing envisioning a rainbow torus shape bridging the north and south poles through the center of the earth

For this reason. I'm excited. I'm feeling a lot of incredible energy and I'm certain others are feeling it too. It feels like low-voltage electricity is constantly flowing through and around me - I love where it takes me. I feel my muses are present and everything is in place. I'll write often as we make our way to December 21, 2012 so that I indulge in, discover, share, and revel in this energy, and perhaps connect with those who are feeling/experiencing the same.

The Evolutionary Impulse

The Evolutionary Impulse - Throat Chakra Study (click to enlarge)
Skeleton: Lords of the Charnel Ground, 15th century Tibetan Art by Smashana Adipati
Body: Self-portrait in french lace
Throat Chakra: My first plane flight age 12
Heart Chakra: Micro leaf photo
Solar Plexus Chakra: Sunrise over temple at Burningman 2011
Sacral Chakra: Stills from the film THE TREE OF LIFE by Terrence Malick
Root Chakra: Stills from the film THE TREE OF LIFE by Terrence Malick

We are at the leading edge of evolution.

I recognize a value system around such an idea - that we are an evolutionary process - and that the thrill of life, the light, the connectedness, that which helps us realize we are not only separate physical beings, but we are spiritual beings connected on a quantum level, is the very evolutionary process that created the cosmos. I have been feeling this impulse in a physical manner recently – in the way that I feel my collective cells are informing me. More specifically – as I’ve made it a priority in 2011 to use food as medicine or fuel ie. the best of the best (nutritious veggies, fruits, proteins, whole grains, always more water, little to no alcohol etc) my cells thank me with an energy and an internal voice that is stronger than I’ve ever experienced.


Spiraling Serpent - Throat Chakra Study (click to enlarge)
Skeleton: Lords of the Charnel Ground, 15th century Tibetan Art by Smashana Adipati
Throat Chakra: My first plane flight age 12
Heart Chakra: Lush vegetation
Solar Plexus Chakra: pure yellow light - photo found on my camera
Sacral Chakra: Stills from the film THE TREE OF LIFE by Terrence Malick
Root Chakra: Stills from the film THE TREE OF LIFE by Terrence Malick
Acrylic spiraling serpent

Recently during meditation I've felt a spiraling serpent type feeling awaken in me and energize my chakras. I'm currently in a workshop taught by Dr. Elizabeth Debold and Mary Adams who are contemporary evolutionary thinkers and it's incredibly energizing. When Elizabeth and Mary talk about expanding our perception beyond seeing ourselves as single, individual cells and recognizing that we are “the leading edge of a 14 billion year process that is trying to move forward through us into a higher integration,” my latest physical experience all made sense. My concerns for how to make powerful, positive contributions to help solve the ills of the post-modern era that have come to light in regards to our planet and our species is no longer a concern, but somewhat of a mission.

I'm starting to recognize that any fears I may rub up against in this pursuit – the evolutionary impulse that I am feeling – come from my ego, from an egocentric viewpoint. This is not about me, this is about us, the human species. Now is the time to work together, for each other, and I truly believe the universe will give back in equal measure, in the most magical of ways.

The first lesson of the workshop is this:
Awaken to and embody an evolutionary perspective.
"I wholeheartedly embrace a philosophical and moral reference point for my life based in the truth that we are all the product of a process that has been evolving for 14 billion years. From this perspective, I live in the awareness that the evolutionary impulse that created the entire universe is not separate from my deepest motivation to develop and I strive to align with it to consciously create the future."

Don't know about you, but it appears clear to me that the need for humanity to move to a higher integration is directly tied to the health of our species.

This is our responsibility and privilege as we are at the leading edge of evolution. "With this perspective," says Mary Adams, "our worries and concerns in one's personal life start to fade a bit - there is something in us that is driving us to a different order of integration and wholeness. The deepest motivation in ourselves is the force of that attempting to move forward through us. The evolutionary impulse. The sense of resonance that my life has a larger role. It demands of each of us to make decisions in alignment with this new perspective. This is our transformation to elevate and move culture forward."

I wanted to share some thoughts and creativity that have been rockin my world lately.

I am another yourself,
Nancy

Protect yourself or you'll lose power

Ok, for those of you who remember the first days of 2012 for me: the disappearing hat, also grandmother's antique hand-mirror (that I realize was also gone from that night, aaand I shouldn't have brought it in the first place. All part of the lesson, you see), then a ticket for not wearing my seatbelt, then imac power cord - not yet a year old - just stopped working.

First of all, the conclusions:

1. The girl who owns the hat is totally awesome and my target audience and someone I very much want wearing my hat! She's adorable, interesting, smart, fun, funnY, and trustworthy! She appreciates it. So that's awesome. I want a photo of her with it on! Anyways. . .

2. The Apple store switched out the power cord, no questions asked. (Thank you dear Robiti for helping with this.)

3. I paid my parking ticket immediately upon entering my house, right after getting it. Ripped it up.

And then, after a few days, the lesson became clear:
Protect yourself or you'll lose power

This is a powerful statement in so many ways - from physically, to what and how you choose to divulge, indulge, and invest. Don't be naive, however don't be fearful. Protect - not from fear, just wisdom. Protect your peace of mind, for example, protect your health.

Really great first few days of this 2012 new year. Hope you are well!

Guovssahas, Serpents, and Red Resonant Dragon

The great Teacher Eden Sky writes:
"December 21, 2012 marks the Shifting of World Ages, a return to zero point, where we officially transition from the current 5,125 year World Age Cycle, and enter into a New World Cycle; marking a new level of our unfoldment as a planetary collective; a new level of our human evolution in concert with our living Universe.

If one researches prophecies from ancient cultures, and investigates modern scientific and spiritual decodings of these times we are living in, one will find a whole spectrum of insight, opinions, warnings, facts, theories, and possibilities about where we have come from, and where we are heading. While many pieces of the puzzle match up, plenty of pieces and voices do not align, and in fact contradict one another.

I write this article as someone who has been in this field of investigation and discovery for 17 years and counting, having passionately delved into this realm and taken in information and insights from countless sources. In this personal journey, my intention has been to be informed of various viewpoints, especially those thought to be from the most reputable sources, including indigenous messengers, highly regarded researchers, deeply inspired visionaries, and critically thinking scientists. Upon taking in all of these viewpoints, I then seek to integrate them inside of myself, cross-referencing all the data and voices and applying the discernment of my own intelligence and intuition, that ultimately I can arrive at a synthesis of my own heart's comprehension. It is from this place of what I would call my own "embodiment" that I always attempt to communicate to the world from.

I believe it is ideal for each of us to evolve and refine our own personal embodiment of truth, awareness, and inspiration to guide us from within and to help influence our collective humanity. Therefore, I do not proclaim to know anything more than anyone else. I am simply interested in sharing the understandings I have come to as they have cultivated within me during years of dedicated exploration, in hopes that they may stimulate deeper levels of your own knowing.

That said, the message I wish to offer to the human family is this:
Let us realize that December 21, 2012 does indeed mark the completion of a vast cycle, and the dawning of a New World Age on Planet Earth. However, let us not naively look to this one day to instantly transform all the far-reaching crises and imbalances we face as a global society." READ MORE OF EDEN SKY

I am feeling intense energy and as my body, mind, and spirit are aligned through good decisions, my cells are guiding my body, working as a team, informing me of what I need. Water, movement, quiet stillness, stretching, proper fuel. . .

Last night was especially strong and aligned and I experienced prolonged moments of bliss.

According to the 13 moon calendar, it was Yellow Cosmic Seed
I endure in order to target,
Transcending awareness.
I seal the input of flowering
With the cosmic tone of presence.
I am guided by the power of elegance.

Today is:
Red Magnetic Serpent
I unify in order to survive,
Attracting instinct.
I seal the store of life force
With the magnetic tone of purpose.
I am guided by my own power doubled.

The serpent and my experience last night are synonymous. Twisting and stretching and turning like the DNA spiral, the life force and light force travel in spiral. I experienced Kundalini Rising

The Sacral Chakra is an area of contemplation. The Crown Chakra is the gift. These make up my essence.
Imagining a rainbow bridge of light connecting the northern lights to the southern lights.
The indiginous people of Norway, the Sami, called the Aurora Boreais - Guovssahas - which means "the light which can be heard". The northern lights were traditionally associated with sound by the Sami and symbols are on the Sami's shamanistic drums.

Part of my DNA comes from Norway - Olsen - so the Sami and northern lights are of particular interest to me.

I am:
Red Resonant Dragon
I channel in order to nurture,
Inspiring being.
I seal the input of birth
With the resonant tone of attunement.
I am guided by the power of space.
I am a galactic activation portal...enter me.

With Gratitude and Lovingessence.

Sustained Energy and Deeper Appreciation

Today is the last day of my mono-diet - a winter, ayurvedic cleanse consisting of the following for 14 days:

Kitchari - a meal of mung beans, white basmati rice, plenty of ghee, and broccoli, beets, cauliflower, carrots (basically whatever veggies you want to add), and any spices.

1 probiotic (10 billion live per day) and 2 liver support pills

At least 64 oz of filtered water per day

That's it for 14 days.

This is a nourishing cleanse and extremely easy on your digestive system. Although I found eating the same meal for two weeks booorrring, I loved the way it makes me feel! I have sustained energy throughout the entire day, no sugar highs/crashes (which I have really noticed since I'm not eating sugar of any kind) and no lethargy due to certain foods (gluten? meat?). The best way to describe it is my energy is sustained and balanced, I feel great from the inside out, and I LOVE IT.

In my experience this cleanse was 100% worth doing. Aside from how awesome I feel both physically and mentally, I APPRECIATE so much more the fact that on a daily basis I am able to eat a variety of foods for the energy I intake. Many fellow human beings would feel lucky to eat this every day of their lives, just to have something to eat. I feel amazing, and when I'm back to a regular diet of whatever I want, I will more often choose food for the way it will make me feel after eating it. This was a lesson in food as energy - if the input is awesome, so will be how you feel.

I'll finish my cleanse tomorrow, just in time for Winter Solstice 2011 and in preparation for 2012. Excited for new beginnings!

In La Kesh - I am another yourself

Into this right now, she says it so clearly and beautifully. "Be an Agent of Calm. . . I am another yourself".

What is happening now

Amazing to be contributing right now. 2012 is an Awakening of Consciousness. Another level of experience, understanding, and oneness is unfolding. I believe it will be very challenging but also relieving - that the "old way of being" will expire and this new way of being will be a rebirth for our species. A renaissance of humanity. We desperately need it and it is here. The revolution is within ourselves. Get to know our hearts, our inner sacred leaders, be an agent of calm. Share the beauty you find. Inspire through your essence. Contribute with your unique love. "I am another yourself"

Love,
Nancy